smile the way you always do ♥

dinner night.

2008-08-17T02:02:00.000-07:00

yay my night!
but its over.. too fast.. i dont want..
even though i got scolded before i attend the dinner but i still felt happy..

Project project project..

2008-08-08T23:54:00.000-07:00

load of project. sigh. add math. pj. headache. have to done them off in just a week of time. nvm will try out my best of best to dig those needed information. nuk >.-

on my way here

2008-07-30T09:06:00.000-07:00

finally finally. i found my song. i want it so badly that i searched it almost everyday until i get it. eventually, i got it. im so high when i saw it showed on the web! hooray!

LIBRARY

2008-07-30T08:54:00.000-07:00

i think i better go to library everyday. this will save my precious time. i dont have to take nap in evening. i can study what i want satisfactory. so im gonna start it from now on. i need improvement! in every sense. my languages, sciences, all of the, even my knowledge on hot issues. so that i can get sufficient points when it comes to essay in exam or whatever.

the dressing day... 6 JULY 2008

2008-07-18T03:29:00.000-07:00

after international-run, went to most of the boutique just to haunt for a DINNER NIGHT dress.. try on a LIP-pattern dress, RM45, do like it but can smell off a sense of SLEEPING DRESS.. try and try and try.. lastly bought one PINK DRESS.. but i dont want to put it up on here yet cause i want to wait until 15th of August hahaha.. while trying, notice a full big fact! my gosh! LOO PIG's breast is such FULL! can faint! never expect she has a beautiful nice shaped breast. oh that little doggy.. its a shopkeeper's darling..

aerobic

2008-07-18T03:10:00.000-07:00

hahaha.. so free.. i can move how i like.. i dont need to care off of how people will look me in their eyes.. but my hair.................. was a mess! grh! doesnt matter anymore.. it passed..

no kung fu......

2008-07-05T09:54:00.000-07:00

had dinner at cococafe.. no no good the food served there.. even the waiter have no good service.. anyway my family had planned to watch a show tonight 'kung fu panda' but.. all FULL like hell man! aih no chance.. so changes our plan to go shopping at TESCO the whole night after dinner..

im going to heaven if i keep ignoring it

2008-06-29T09:17:00.000-07:00

nonono...
im not going to let her get up onto the stage even though im not that confident on myself...
arggg! how dum is it im doing these things just to suit ur taste huh?!
y don u choose n buy it urself huh?
i hate doing stuff for someone but in return i got blamed! i hate it i hate it i hate it!
said im miser???
hmp! put on ur eyes right on the track n u'll know who is the one who is miser!
buy la buy la... buy d u guys pay... i don care im just the one who collect! they blame me i blame u!

few more hours to go im goin to perform in front of 1200++ student n 20++ teacher!! how if i don do well in it? im so fucking nervous now...

oh what a real shopping day

2008-06-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

my new sport shoe 'REEBOK'
zo n me at jj
while waiting for the shoe to come n serve
zo's 'NIKE' sport shoe

forced to buy something that i never thought of buying ever...
but never mind cause i just have to pay 129 even though the real price of that thing is 229...
its worth while actually...
something that i have to cherish too...
dad mumbled at both of us when he knew off the prices of the sport shoes that bought by us...
aih... the 100 bucks is a lucky draw that zo picked... she got the luck to pick the voucher of 10% less for accessories but i was the one who use the 100bucks voucher off n the 10% voucher just leave it... we dont have anymore cash to buy things so...

miss leong's retire's present 'LOTION'

miss leong retirement is on next monday...
had chosen a lotion from THE FACE SHOP...
it cost me 19.9 after sales...
its sweet n nice but i dono will she like it...

parent's day

2008-06-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

so happy^ got teacher's praises... i'm popular among friends and even teacher! for sure is in good way okay... yea i felt sad too at the same time... i got 10 in my class position... how can i still weak in studies even though i work extra harder? this really pissed me off! maybe the way i use to study is wrong since then... aih... 2 more months will be my trial... how? oh god teach me how????!!!!

sucks!

2008-06-22T04:41:00.000-07:00

dont say im superstitious....
i cannot believe it too....
how can i so careless that i cant even adjust the distance to park the car huh....
eventually, i destroyed the car's door.....
im sorry daddy.....

sorry CHEK

2008-06-19T00:10:00.000-07:00

i really felt sorry to u......
but still i have to continue on what i wanna speak to her that moment.....

for me thats the best moment even though she wouldn't answer me in a true way as what she did and reply.......
i do hope she can forgive me......
one thing i doubt for long is....... why on earth she want to listen just to what i claim..... i mean whati said.......
but its okay d.....
i hope u wont mind and keep to be friend as u guys did last time........
thats my wish for u n her..........

o my my my.........

2008-06-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

aihzzzzzzzzz.........
how m i knowing that i hurt u my fren?
why?
i never knew that i swore!
although i knew it now, i couldn't change even a slightest word that i had spoke off.....
what i can do for now is to apologize......
OH IM SORRY.....
thats all i can do really........
but the is a fact that meant by every single one.... SORRY NO CURE.......
so i deny if she hates me for now and then....
me n u..... there're this sickness inside our small little heart already.........
i knew u mind..... u mind........ u mind.......... n u regret.......... sorryyyyyyyyy..........

damn gain weight again

2008-06-18T05:25:00.000-07:00

wtX
hate it man! how m i going to loss just what 0.1g huh?
im not going to live my whole life continuing gaining weight.... I DON WANT TO!
thought can go home earlier is a good thing but end up just keep consume consume and consume..... gerh!!!!
lame la... eating that time really so happy but after ate felt like hell...........
just thinking of vomit off what i had consume....
but when in think off of money, aih never mind la what i consume is not just food money also but....
what m i going to do la...... in longer time if i still keep doing this, i wont get what i expect for long.... never ever man!

2008-06-07T21:46:00.000-07:00

hall of the hotel

funny

at Sri Dayang hotel

NEW HAIR STYLE OF HIS

2007-12-15T01:37:00.000-08:00

omigash!
he had threme his hair d...
it was two days before...
shock me off!
anyway its not what i thought he was going to do...

INNOCENT... TOO INNOCENT

2007-12-15T01:18:00.002-08:00

damn damn damn!!!
how can he bluff me?!! how can he!
thought he really fly d...
after all... he said it was a joke...
for God sake's... i m too innocent... don't even know he's trying to play fun on me...
nvm... he told me the truth d...

HE FLY EDI

2007-12-12T18:30:00.000-08:00

he told me that he already in Australia...
he had taken his flight on last week...
oh my god...
i never know that i m chatting with a guy from Australia...

INTRODUCING MILK PRODUCT

2007-12-10T23:44:00.000-08:00

haha... so happy i can drink my lovely drink-----MIKO
(a handmade recipe soy milk)^

MODEL?

2007-12-10T23:24:00.000-08:00

oh my my my...
the black guy asked me whether wanna become his model man!
a hair model...
but... but... my legs... aihz...
damn embarrass!!
i don wanna hurt my beautiful legs anymore... but i just cant get help with it... its too hairy... i have to shaved it... after being shaved and shaved... the result become worst... im totally regret why i don buy VEED hair remover cream!!! why!!!
its too late...
being a model just about not more than a week!!!
how?? i really wanna scream!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
somebody help... just help me to leave the hurt and itchy feel... so that it can get heel in time... pleaseeeeeeeeee~~~

FIRST DATE

2007-12-07T10:38:00.000-08:00

damn bored man...
yea this is my first date... dating with a mixed guy...
he is a hair stylish... y? y was he a hair stylish??
i don wanna hang round with hair stylish anymore...
i just wanna scream...
damn weird la having a date with this black... tot can have a great meal... to bad... everything going too rush... the movie--GOLDEN COMPASS started at 9.30...
he reached at 9.00...
sienzzzzzzz... don wanna read anything bout Jason and his so call girlfriend anymore... damn annoying la...

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY^^

2007-11-28T10:21:00.001-08:00

haha so so so happy... and surprise as well...
he--- Jason talk to me in msn...
he talk to me first haha...
i dont wanna think too much, maybe he justt dont want our friendship to be ended just like that... maybe he dont want me to get pissed off of him... maybe he just feels like its his responsible to take care of how a girl would feels when she was falling out of love and falling into hurts...
maybe after he knows im ok edi he will just walk away...
i just hope this will not be happen someday...

FISH MAN!!!

2007-11-28T06:43:00.000-08:00

arh!!
gikzz me off!! yea i do hope that we can be couple again...
i text sin pei to speak out all i want and she called her boyfriend and her boyfriend ask Jaz to called me up and explain to me WHY he wanted to broke up with me...
now only i know the truth...
he actually don feel we have same interest, we are different type of people... from different world, we having long distanced relation... his phone is one of the reason... and arh i cant remember edi...
i actually don like what sin's boyfriend's said that day...
he just keep his mouth on Jason... he dono how i actually feel...
they don even want to understand me... just want me to understand them...
selfish!!!
but he just want me to get piss off of Jason...
maybe he will change what he actually.. i mean first think of what type of girl i m...
maybe all my image just changed b'cos of what i did...

KISS THE PAIN AWAY

2007-11-24T00:40:00.000-08:00

i have actually nothing to deal with pain now...
but still the hurt is there for the time to heel...
i really really need time...
time is everything for now... for me... the little girl who just ended her first love...
i really thought of first love can be very very sweet, romantic one...
but... things just crossed the wrong track...
he had decided to put me off...
and left me alone...
he is damn rich man... live in Damansara apartment...
i know this after we broke...
damn unworthy... i lost a handsome, rich, and just wanna turn himself into a new leaf guy(everybody admit him as a handsome guy)
GOD DAMN IT!!! HE IS NO LONGER BELONGS TO ME..............................

EVERYTHINGS HEAVY NOW

2007-11-20T10:51:00.000-08:00

act i had met up v a guy named JASON WAN on 27th of Oct... above is de photo of him so called my BOY...
he had taken off my first kiss that day...
im kind of like like him in the sense that he had took off my kiss...
at first i reli tink of r we gonna be suffered if we reli start off...
cos this is a long-distances relationship...
but we both don mind in de vv first...
so we just keep sending msg or called each oth(just once or twice only for call) to know wts goin on with our days and nights...
im truly tired of waiting for him to reply my msg...
he can just fallen asleep although im nt in good condition...
he don even dare to care...
i could hardly felt it...
i noe he's gonna works for de sack of money... and he's gonna be tired...
but i cant stand like this cos he's tired every single minute...
he's a guy dat r open-minded, loves to have night life, loves to dance, loves his family more than everything... even more than me... (he said and he meant it too...)
i was thinkin bout alright i can take it if a boy like him would loves his family...
he's a shao ye at home... his family just treat him as a prince...
he did promise me dat i'll be bliss if i go with him...
but in de end he hold back what he had promised...
alright although im nt happy with tis bt i had taken and admitted it...
so... im gonna wish for myself to get a true love in future...
I WANT LOVE NOT ONLY L.V.

2007-11-20T10:49:00.000-08:00

damn hurt man...
our story just put on a full stop yesterday... i mean jason n me...
he said he don have feel v me... he don fel anytin wen v together...
v just met once sure he don feel anythin...

act i lie on him b4 de day v broke...
u noe wt...
i was acting like im drunk, n speak out whateva i wan cos im fed up with waiting for him to msg me...
i said 'forget me off, v r gonna be pass by walkers, not knowing each others, buh-bye'
and he replied me 'this is what u said, i din say anythin bout it, don regret, bye'
u know how hurt was dat for me... tis is my first time... i think i just happen to start fall with someone although he's not de one i reli wan...

after dat day i keep on sending msg with him as usual bt i jus act like i dono wt had act happened dat day...
on that night he just said he don feel liking me act and don want to hurt me...
he's kinda carefree person to me... cos he seldom call me, not sending msg either...
i just cried for one night...dat was de night dat read his msg saying bye... and ntg d... cos i felt satisfy wen i noe de truth...
i don want to be with someone dat don like me...
i noe ntg is gonna be worth den a big and extra darken full stop if there's no love in a relationship...
but i still miss him...
i noe time can wash off all tis...
but how bout my kiss?!
its truly unworthy u noe...

he ask me to listen to a song named SAY GOODBYE by chris brown... and ask me to try to understand de lyrics...
i just seek it out and read 'em off...
oh JEES... i felt hurt and i felt sorry for him too...
he had been suffered for 23 days with me...
but i hate dat he says 'its kinda waste of money wen i called you o msg you, i got ntg to talk to you sometime...
he din even dare to say sometin to warm my heart up...
i noe tis day is gonna come bt i don expect dat he don like me from de very first...
damn sad man...
this is what i end up with an unpleasant first love...
but i still can say dat im still de single one... cos me n him had never dated b4...
i don tink tis is counted as a date either...
he just ask me to forget bout it... i noe he can in an instant-rate... but i cant...
i need time...

i think tis is all bout my recent life...
oh yea mom has just brought back a dalmation dog...
it is a dog dat been trained... i mean he's not a young one...
will send u his photo if i gt de time alright...
dad n mom r gonna go shang hai dono on which date...
v r gonna go kl tis weekend...

EXAM OVER HAPPINESS BEGIN^^

2007-10-11T06:37:00.000-07:00

what a happy, relax day...
i had been leaving my dreamland for 12 days...
im now looking like an old lady...
my panda eyes growing darker...
i must buy a foundation be put off de trail man!
but i don't know which brand should i buy...
there are 2 many branded cosmetics in the market...
haiyo so struggle man...
erm...
i have a strong feel like buying the Loreal's foundation stick!!!!!

LONG TIME AGO...

2007-09-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

Ain't a bad day... but have too much works haven done yet... I'm so so so tired of my ART CLUB works... after being a president only i know $$$$ is very very important in real life... everything i wanna start off needs $$$$... but then i couldn't get any... moreover times don allow me to collect em too... there is too many obstacle around me... but sometimes i would think that I'm the lucky ones among the rest... cos i have a good wise... she is so helpful... ain't like those president n wise before our turns to be... i know she wants the club to be an active club... but to be an active club have to set the members active first... i don feel that anyway(sad news)... i have been collecting $$ for f5 farewell for dono how many times d... still i couldn't gt... n worse still the farewell has been postpone n postpone n postpone...... i tought dat i can put this heavy stone away after today but...

I NEED TIME! I NEED MIND!

2007-08-09T09:48:00.001-07:00

Oh my god... my mind is a messy now... im so rush for doing this & that just to get everything ready by 18/8... Dat day is specially for my club -ART CLUB- farewell for our form 5 senior... im now just have one more week to go to prepared everything so that the members won't be disappointed with me... I noe im now a new president of this club... Actually my club is not that popular in my school... this club din have any things er... what i mean is good results for any function... such as pertandingan or whatever dat will let ppl felt shock!!! So now & then i wanna change the club member's attitude... i want them to feel dat my club now is doing somthing different, not like before... but now i still got many works need to be done by next week & i need more time to solve all my crazy, messy, dumpy staff!!! Anyway i will do it.......

2007-07-03T01:29:00.000-07:00

There will be a ♥DiVA'S MAGAZINE on the market one day!!!

RELAX!!!

2007-07-03T01:07:00.000-07:00

telling me to RELAX MORE???
elo~~~ can u say one more time please???
how am i goin to relax in this kind of condition??
i hate my house...
its too dirty n messy... i keep on cleaning n put off all those XXX stuff back stil nobody care... n take them out n just throw everywhere...
i get fed up edi... no one can jus give a hand to me n help...
anyway what i can do is just keep on doing de same things til i go...

EAT LIGHT??

2007-07-03T00:53:00.000-07:00

i wanna do that also... but de food are toooo attracted... i cant stop eating minutes to minutes!!!
please la... put away all those fatty sweety stuff from my sight la....

BARBIE DOLL DREAM

2007-07-01T06:46:00.001-07:00

All my accessories... wanted to hunt more than this...

READING, WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE

2007-07-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

done all my homework... so happy cause can finish reading the news paper... aiyo~~ what happen to my face???? i dont want it to be worse anymore... pls... can sombody give me some secret to help me... mom's birthday (30/6) goin out to eat dinner... alamak... food lik shit...

SEFLESSNESS??!

2007-06-29T08:42:00.000-07:00

daddy is going for a trip to KL till Monday... then straight away from KL to KLIA flying to Singapore till next Thursday oni back home... how anxious i m from the day he go till the day he back... sure there are many reason y im anxious... 1.safety 2.mom's big mouth (always mumbling) 3.housework dat forever not done by som1 (hated 1) many many more...... HOPING everything goes on smoothly till daddy back home...